As It Happens

Well this morning I think I managed to sleep for about maybe half an hour... fourty five minutes if I'm lucky. My heart rate all night was balancing around 44bpm resting and would dip lower when I started to doze off. My oxygen saturation was at 98% which I'm guessing means the heart rate is technically ok but it was still freaky having it goes so low. As far as I know thats a new thing for me. So in the name of fear I didn't sleep too well. Also it seems whenever I did start to doze off I'd get a whopping heart palpitation. It would seem sleep just wasn't meant for me.

My ever loving husband got up with our toddler and got her ready for school so that I could try to get a bit more sleep. Didn't work out quite that way. I was wide awake again by then... 

Upon getting up I realized my heart rate was up past 100. I'd be at around 65, stand up and it would pop up to 103 in a matter of seconds. That kind of ruined my day. Again I'm not sure how bad that is but it worried me.

I had an appoinment with our local aboriginal health clinic this morning. I was feeling pretty low due to all that has been going on with me so when I went in I was crying. Got through the intake though. Will be getting set up with a councillor hopefully before the end of the week. I was kind of hoping for some direction with this but at least I'll have someone to talk to. It is councelling and not full on psychiatry. I can work with that. I hope...

Once I came home from the appoinment I went up to my daughters room and tried to take a nap. I have a mattress set up on her floor so when my husband is not around I can go chill with her. Yes I'm dependant on others at this point in the game. It sucks but I am glad I havea supportive family to help me through this. I think I dozed off a bit but not as much as I would have liked.

After I gave up trying to sleep I came down and started cooking dinner. While I was cooking my step daughter told me she had a heavy feeling in her chest and felt like she was a bit short of breath. I had my oximeter on so set it up and got her to put it on to see what her oxygen level was at. After minute I said ok lets see how it is. Her oxygen was 97% which is good but her heart rate was 150. All she had done was stand and cook bacon. I'm going to push her to go see the doctor. Have a physical. She has Renauds Syndrome and I hope this is not a negative symptom of it. 

Well I finished din din and am relaxing. Debating trying for a nap again. Might prove to be another sleepless night. My schedule is definitely getting messed up.